A Little on my Story

I was born in Winnipeg, Manitoba... on living land that had been cared for by Indigenous peoples for thousands of years before the arrival of my ancestors... in a place now known as Treaty 1 Territory and the homeland of the Metis Nation.

When I was 4 years old… I knew who I was and why I was here. I knew it was to be something between a teacher, a doctor, and a psychologist. Someone who could see inside people… see their beauty, and could both help them to see that, and to let go of the parts of them that were not true. I couldn’t express that, and had never seen it in my outside world… so, when asked what I wanted to be when I grew up, I said,“An archeologist.”

Close enough…

I grew up with a huge amount of stress in not understanding why the outer world made absolutely no sense to me. I was sensitive. Overwhelmed... pretty well all the time. And, I never knew what to do. Those feelings plagued me throughout my childhood, youth, and adulthood. The only place where things stopped and my insides felt home was in what those around me called, my ‘weird stuff’.

I met my first healing teachers at 17 and 24 years old, but they were brief interludes compared to my desires. There weren’t ‘places’ to learn or valid career paths to follow 35 years ago that looked like mine. I went into Education… left it for Homeopathy school… came back to working in a school in a magical ‘school counseling’ role… which I left again after a decade of hard work and rich learning in sheer exhaustion.

Throughout… through university, through my teaching years, through the last 20+ years of being a mom, sometimes while doing all 3 of those things at a time, I consistently grew myself in any areas that involved personal growth, spirituality, healing, and connecting with and helping people. If I ever didn’t have enough ‘weird stuff’ going on I would start to die inside... It was always where I came alive, and the only place where things made sense.

I tried very hard to be ‘normal and fit in’ on the outside and have a ‘real job’. I had a small healing practice for most of the last 30 years... just enough to keep my spirit alive.

At 24, I was approached by an Elder and told who I was... but had no doorway into community at that time..... at 33 I was invited by a friend to  attend a Purification Lodge and to pass Tobacco to ask about a dream that had shocked me and been with me for months. The Lodge Keeper who received this dream welcomed me into community as a healer and my own healing journey began in ernest. In the generosity of this time, I have been helped in ways that my own culture could not have ever seen. I am eternally grateful for each and every meeting, voice, conversation, Grandmother, Grandfather, helper, Teaching, Ceremony and dream that has made up this walk. They grew me, corrected my trajectory, and created a pathway to live more aligned with my spirit. It matters deeply to use my life in a way that is a living expression of that gratitude.

At the same time, my teaching life was showing me about the weight borne by Indigenous students and families to walk in ‘school life’ and in larger colonial-based society. I was supported in bringing concepts learned in ceremonial community into my school life, and helped grow some heart-centered conversations in that setting. It was good.

Also in the same period, I was introduced to BodyTalk. I have received sessions for 18 years through an expert practitioner, who is also deeply anchored in the understandings of the human being and our place amid the myriad of cycles within and around us. This pathway has helped untangle my sensitivities and overwhelm, and softened the impacts of such a stressed existence from my body, mind and heart.

About 8 years ago, a blue dragonfly started flitting around in my inner world... then started showing up in my outer world... and she brought messages,

“Follow your heart, it knows where it is going.”

“I’m here to crack open the illusion of your life for you to live who you really are.”

“There is no more time to wait... you don’t want to forget to do what you are here to do.” 

At 45 years old and in utter burnout from living 2 lives, I left education, my pay, pension and ‘normal disguise,’ and followed that Blue Dragonfly into the ‘Crack in the Universe.’ I committed to bringing my insides and outsides to resonate as one together... to fully living, learning, healing my fear, and fully expressing myself as a healer every day. What I have found is the utter joy of living my place in the world, a feeling that I have waited for my whole life… always knowing this feeling would be mine to know when the time finally came.

It’s here.

I have grown skills that I am extremely proud of, and bask in the joy of the work every day. My prayers are to live a life that is true to what the Creator intends for me, and to be helpful while I’m here, and hopefully leave some good behind when I leave.

This Blue Dragonfly continues to lead me on explorations of what is unseen... these Energetic Explorations. She is a lovely guide for a ‘healer-type’...  to help open people up, soften what has kept them sick, small or afraid, introduce new possibilities, and help them live the beauty of who they are.

The imagery of this site is intended to honour that Dragonfly…to show her on a bit of a journey.. exploring around, and expressing the magic that comes when we can move through the illusions we live.

 

Thank-Yous…

I offer my thank-yous to…

That Great Mystery of All That Is

All that surrounds and supports and makes up life… Earth, Air, Water, Fire…

Grandfather Sun, Grandmother Moon, Mother Earth, Father Sky and All My Relations…

The Stone and Crystal People, The Standing Ones and All the Green, the Two-Leggeds, Four-Leggeds, Winged Ones, Finned Ones, all Those Who Creep, Crawl and Slither above and below the Earth…

My Ancestors and grandparents who have so beautifully become such…

Mom and Dad

Breath, Body, Heart, Mind and Spirit

The Drum

Ceremony to teach me necessity of all that is above for even the chance to be here…

My siblings, amazing spouse and kids, home…

In-laws, nieces, nephews, aunts, uncles and cousins…

Friends, struggles, strengths, dreams, teachers, community, Grandmothers, Grandfathers, helpers, spirit helpers, mirrors, Songs, clients, students, heartbreak… many of all of these…

Women further down the path than me…

Repeated deaths of the little self, tears, webs of support, the magical renewal of Life, moments of absolute joy, new ground…

Repeat…

The Blue Dragonfly